The struggle to write

Once again I struggled writing hiring by gut, tearing out page after page.

I realized I forgot to think of this blog as a personal journal first before anything else.

Once I corrected this thinking, words flowed again.

Part of the struggle is although this is to be a personal journal, for obvious reasons some things like names, specific details, etc. need to be masked out of respect for the privacy of others.

So I was stuttering around with my pen trying to wrangle the proper wording to say things and that’s when I reminded myself to keep writing personally and then make the changes needed after.

I put a note on top of my journal in big letters as a reminder:

“write for yourself first and sort the rest after”

It’s been very useful for when I forget this and get log-jammed up in here.

(It’s also useful for writing anything else really because asking myself “What are my personal thoughts?” helps get me away from writing-for-an-audience mode which I loathe because it’s not as authentic for me.)